May 212010
 

Letter to a Case Manager:

Friday dinner with my parents, three brothers, my sister and brother in law and daughter Ashley was an evening I will always cherish.  I do not recall ever being as vulnerable and honest.  It was freeing.  I shared with them my feelings as I never have in my life.  I felt strong.  There is a peace in my soul. My work at Seasons is not a dream.  I did not betray myself with my family. I am authentic.

I am a real person no longer split off from my self.  I am in tune with myself, my family and God.  I am a real person.  I have my Self back with me.  I am a happy man. I am a man.  For the first time in my life ” I Am”.   Tonight at our Shaver cabin I did not rehearse my comments.  I expressed myself in a new and fresh way.  Oh my dear sweet God I am not locked up.  I am not being smothered by inner shame and endless doubt. My heart is full.

I’m alive.  I will sleep soundly tonight. Wow…I have tears of gratitude and faith and no shame. Kevin…..the real Kevin